‘Devil Inside My Mind’ could be an action-packed thriller. It could also be a social commentary. It could also be a self-help book. The book is all this, and much more – for it is a chronicle of a man plagued by a phenomenon that is as emotional as it is physical.
Dr. Gaurav Nigam has narrated the story of struggles and triumphs of a young man through the character – Amit Saxena – who leads his life as dictated by his obsessions. A full-blown victim of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, the book is like a ‘mind over matter’ journey of leading a ‘unique living profile’ with his struggles and triumphs. His only escape from not having a social life because of his condition is writing scathing, self-aware, and at times teary-eyed expressions of what all his mind dictates him to do. The book is all about his struggle to fit in, which is compounded by the many inexplicable quirks associated with his OCD.
I loved reading about how Amit cuts off the names of diseases from his medicine textbooks so that he is ‘victorious’ over them. I was delighted to read about how he wins a dissection battle from a cushion made of feathers as he was fearful of it being the main cause of HIV. In everyday incidents, the book explores, in completely lay-person terms, the science behind what is OCD – and how a person discovers it threadbare. It is about taming the devil within for the protagonist, Amit.
The book is a chronicle of personal triumph in how Amit makes peace with the world of his ‘fantasy’ and trains his mind to generate solutions to its own problems.
The author, Dr. Nigam uses his protagonist to illustrate the triumph of the spirit when Amit becomes a world-renowned pediatrician, rubbing shoulders with the crème-de-la-crème.
‘Devil Inside My Mind’ is as humbling as it is honest; it is as informative as it is vivid. It is as biographical as it is a commentary. The intricately imagined visuals also open up the possibility that OCD is something that could happen to anyone and could manifest itself in myriad forms.
These brutally honest monologues are eye-opening candid conversations with oneself. Indulge in them!
Price: Rs 199; there is also a kindle edition available for Rs 145
About The Author:
Born in New Delhi, India, Gaurav was brought up in a progressive and ‘chilled-out’ family. His love for children inspired him to take up pediatrician. Currently, he manages Dr Nigam’s Clinic, a holistic wellness centre. His interest and passion for writing led him to start an initiative called iCare – an influential magazine on new-age childcare. With ‘Devil Inside My Mind’, Dr Nigam takes his first tentative steps into formal writing – and mind you, he should tread the path more often.
“I thought about taking my life for the 138th time today. No I am not making this up.
The words that you write last for your book are the one that are read first by your audience. Ironical. Such was my life.
Hi. I am Amit. This is the story of my life, a life lived through the tinted glasses of OCD – a weird disease where you can’t shake off the strangest of thoughts. I have lived in alternative realities, been slapped in public for touching a woman’s back to purify her, walked in a loop of the same 70 steps for over five hours to make sure my loved ones do not die. Things that are normal were never normal for me.
This is the story of my life… A life twisted by OCD… My journey from insanity to sanity, from the deepest dark wells to the pinnacles of success… From being the Patient to becoming the world-renowned doctor. This is my one and only story.”
Text by Gursimran Singh